Sophia Niccum, For You My Dear.

You shut your door,

Don't let them hear,

In front of them you show no fear,

You close your eyes,

Wish you were dead,

As all the things that they have said,

Are being beat into your head,

Each morning you wake,

You wear a mask,

Pray and hope no one will ask,

Why you do such silly things,

If only they knew how rejection stings,

You don't think you quite fit in,

Now you seek acceptance from your sin,

Your digging a hole,

It's far too deep,

The emptiness is what you keep,

Locked inside,

No one can hear,

The hopeless sigh,

The silent tear,

All you want is a friend,

Someone there to hold your hand,

You seem to search in every wrong place,

Each new mistake,

Comes with a new face,

The road you take to obtain your perfection,

Seems to lead you in the wrong direction,

If only you knew how wonderful you are,

Now you think you have gone to far,

It's never to late to change your ways,

I can help you through the maze,

So take my hand,

Hold on tight,

Know you'll make it through the night,

For there is one place you will find power,

HE is with you every hour,

You will find when you search with in,

Nothing good comes from your sin,

Your life is not over,

It's just begun,

So never say,

"My life is done"

Trust in God with all your heart,

That is when your life will start.


If anything seems familiar its because you probably wrote it. I think its time you take your own advice. I love you and I know you will make it through anything. Just Trust in God he will make everything right. You know I'm always here for you. Anything you ever need Babe I'm here.
I love you.
Stay strong.

Not Yet Sixteen.

Today sucked. I missed my creative writing class and I still had to go to school. I say, there is no point in going if I have missed the best hour of the day. Whatever. I had to make up a test and my math teacher didn't even care that I walked into her class right during her lesson. Am I really that invisible? And to top it all off I'm not the only one who is sick. I got my boy friend sick and I have also managed to get my friend Deanna sick. Two points for Heather. Any ways. Besides me crabbing about my day other things have happened. First off my brother got attacked by a dog yesterday. Ha. I know I shouldn't find humor in that, but I do. On another note, my birthday is in one week and a day. I will be sixteen and I'm contemplating on whether I should have a party or not. I would rather have my friends out to eat for dinner or something but then again I keep finding people I want to invite. Having a party would probably result in alcohol getting brought to my house and then my dad kicking someones butt, and I'm pretty sure that isn't how anyone would want their night to go. So maybe ruling out the party, at least for now. Maybe I'll get a car, maybe I won't. If I want anything though it would probably be a new computer. My personal laptop that no one would be able to touch. That way no one would be able to mess with it. But that is all for now. Alissa has to do her home work. Yet another reason to get my own, I woulnd't have to share. Well I guess thats all. I might be on later.