Failure.

That is all I am.
How in the world could I let someone that was so close to me just slip away?
She was my best friend.
We did everything together.
We had so many laughs together.
We made everyone look and stare at the girls standing there causing trouble.
We ruined our lives together.
We became who we are today together.
She is the one and only person that got me threw the hardest part of my life.
And how do I repay her?
By letting her leave.
By going on with my days without talking to her.
By having to cancel our only plans we have made in the past month.
I wish there was more I could do.
I have a licence, but much good that does when you don't have a car.
I would come and visit.
I would come and get you,
We would drive to shop n' save and push each other around in carts.
We would climb out of tiny windows together.
Hopefully we wouldn't get caught this time.
Right now things are going pretty good.
I wouldn't need you to write me songs that make me cry.
You wouldn't have to listen to my stories about me just causing more trouble for myself and telling me its not my fault
But it would just be nice if I could see you.
I'm rambling, on and on and on and on.
I tend to do this when I can't stop thinking of something.
This has been bothering me for days now.
Sophia, I miss you.
I know this probably wont happen but it would be freakin sweet if you could please come back to my church, our church.
I know there are issues there but...
I'm just going to stop now before I start to say what I really want.
You know out of all people how selfish I really am.
And I would really like to be selfish right now,
but I love you and I want you to be happy,
Even if that means you wont ever come back to St. Charles River Church again.
I guess all I have to say now is,
I love you,
Can you be my best friend again?

p.s. did you ever find your GPS? sorry really random. ha.