New Beginnings

Starting over always feels good.
I think thats what I need,
A new start.
Nothing from the past holding me down.
Only the future to look towards.
I need to get rid of all of my recent mistakes.
Lord knows I have made quite a few lately.
Getting mixed up in a number of boys,
all happening to be very bad news for me.
Some not as bad as others, but still trouble.
I have gotten myself stuck because I'm searching.
I should be letting whatever is supposed to happen,
happen but my greedy self wont let that work.
I keep searching and searching.
The weird thing is I'm finding people.
But even I know they wont work.
For something to work out you can't force it.
I'm forcing it.
It's not going anywhere.
So now is when I do nothing.
Let time work it's magic.
Now is when I have to get rid of everything I know is bad.
Let it all go.
Start off on a blank page.
The page is mine to fill it how I would like.
Maybe I shouldn't be in such a hurry to fill this page.
The last one is filled with swirls and scribbles,
Half of the words are scrached out,
and then rewritten.
I have to stop this nonsince.
It's getting me no where.
Here's to new beginnings.