Where Are You?

Where are you?
Why cant I see you?
Why did you leave?
She prays to you everyday.
Why cant you listen to her.
Why don't you answer her prayers.
She depends so much on you.
You are everything to her.
You are her hope.
You are her strength.
You are her guidance.
Why are you letting her down?
Why are you letting me down?
I don't think you exist anymore.
If you are so powerful, why don't you help?
What are you doing?
What are you waiting for?
Things are beyond broken.
They are shattered.
Quite frankly I don't think this is mend able.
I don't think this thing called my family is mend able.
I'm so scared of him.
Why do you let him scare me.
I cant love him.
I don't want to love him.
You have to love him for me.
He is the monster of my nightmares.
He no longer is father to me.
I don't think he has been for quite some time.
He is now just the face of evil.
When people think hatred they think the devil.
When I think hatred I see my fathers face.
Nothing ever changes.
He seems to be switching roles every month or so.
But the one role he plays the best is the Beast.
Everyone else looks at him and sees an old balding guy.
I look at him, at his very best, and his eyes glow,
His teeth sharpen, nails grow, and he is covered in fur.
Don't make him angry.
He will rip you apart.
Say one wrong thing and his razor sharp fangs,
are ready to pierce through your throat like it was butter.
Try and turn and run but he is right on you,
nails ripping you limb from limb.
I want him to go away.
I want you to come back.
So many people say you are there.
I have never felt so alone in my life.
Please, do something.
Prove to me I didn't just write this whole thing,
to someone who doesn't even exist.