FOR SALE: my life; you can take it.

Whiplash; what I am currently feeling, my recent mood swings are the reason. It would be great to feel nothing at all. If only there was a medication, take once daily to induce numbness of mind and body. The genius that comes up with that one better hit me up ASAP. I freak myself out. Honestly I didn’t know one small mind could hold so many thoughts, regrets, guilt’s, passions, and pleasures. If only god made the human mind slightly less intricate. I’m a troubled teenaged nobody. Sometimes I’m alright with that but other times I wish I held a different destiny. It would be awesome if you could pick your life sentencing. Being the masochistic person I am I would probably pick some horrible fate for myself, like reliving my life over and over. Another light bulb thought, adopt a life. If I could give my life up for adoption I would in a meaningless heartbeat and then feel sorry for the poor soul that would be crazy enough to take it… as if that would happen. My life would be the sad individual that gets passed from foster home to foster home because it’s to troubled for any one to handle. Seeing as adopt a life and my would-be-completely-dependent-on-if-it-existed are nonexistent, I’m screwed.