One step closer to a better me, hopefully.

Family: Parents and their children, considered as a group, whether dwelling together or not.
How ironic.
This is what "Family" is written in the dictionary as.
My favorite part is,
"whether dwelling together or not"
To me this just proves something.
Society has made the family,
to be nothing but "blood related" people.
Who cares if you are united..
Last time I checked,
my definition of family was more of,
a unit type of thing.
But, seeing as 50% of all marriages,
end up in divorce the Dictionary's definition,
would appear to be more accurate.
It saddens my heart to hear that.
Just think, that means MY marriage has a
50% chance that it might be a failure.
That means YOUR marriage has a
50% chance of failing .
Well isn't that just reassuring.
If you get anything out of this it should be this;
Don't be to easily committed.
I know, how hypocritical of me.
I'm the one to jump into relationships,
head on, full speed, never looking back,
never pausing for a second to weigh my consequences.
But as I said earlier,
I'm trying my best to change.
From now on I'm going to think things over,
take my time.
No need to rush things,
I have to rest of my life,
I hope.
I figure, if a good thing is there,
it will wait.
Good things are always worth waiting for.
The only problem is recognising what a good thing looks like.
That I constantly struggle with.
I have probably let so many good things pass me by,
while all my time was consumed by,
the more appealing, risky path.
People say "You only have one life to live,
mess it up right"
I used to think that was the smartest thing I have ever heard.
Well, my thoughts on that have changed.
It is probably the stupidest thing I have ever heard.
It should be"You only have one life to life,
live it right, make a difference"
Still as I'm writing this,
and you are reading it,
I find it extremely hard to believe it,
and I wouldn't doubt it,
you think I'm just talking out of my butt.
But give it a chance.
Realize it's the choices you make,
that make who you are.
Right now I am the horrible person I am,
because of the horrible choices I have made.
Some of the choices are still effecting me.
I will learn to over come them soon.