Trapped

I'm trapped in my own thoughts.

I can't escape them.

Everything is begining to run together,

like a giant blur of lights.

I can't concentrate on anything else.

School work is left undone.

So many problems,

like the dull roar of a restraunt,

the problems never go away,

they only get pushed to the back of my head.

The are begining to get louder.

I have headaches from thinking so much.

Now is when I want to run.

I want to run and hide from myself.

I picture myself crawling out of my skin,

hiding behind a couch,

peeking over the arm,

watching my thoughts eat my body,

watching it twist in pain,

possibly running into walls because of the confusion. (Ha!)

I want to leave it all behind.

But instead I'm stuck.

Thoughts are filling my head.

The problems are getting bigger.

They wont leave room for me.

Im getting pushed out of my own brain.

But wait, there isn't anywhere to go.

The problems are swallowing me.

I can't stand this constant feeling,

like I'm drowning.

I'm only able to breath from the small,

slowly dissapearing pocket of air,

at the top of my mind.

Let me escape.

Let me run far away.

Let me run, and never look back.

Let me start over,

anywhere but here,

trapped in my world of thoughts.